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BEER
  .02 CLOWNS OR MIMES
CLOWNS
  .03 BATH
SHOWER/BATH
  .04 PIRATES
PIRATES/NINJAS
  .05 TITS OR ASS
BOTH
  .06 COFFEE OR TEA
COFFEE
  .07 SPICY OR SWEET
SPICY
  .08 SUMMER OR WINTER
SUMMER
   .09 LEATHER OR LACE
LEATHER
  10. ROUGH SEX OR GENTLE SEX
BOTH
ENTJ-A

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hey.
good hey or bad hey
cuz hey could mean 'I have more delicious macarons for you' or, I dunno, 'help, I am a damsel in distress and need rescuing from a pro hero'
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uhhhh
'mildly inconvenient 50/50 chance of being a problem' hey?
distress is definitely involved but it's complicated
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huh. no one ever said 'it's complicated' about something good.
is it an in-person thing or an over-text thing?
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A LONG pause. ]
i guess i could tell you the details over text and you can decide if it's worth an in-person visit?
probably simpler that way.
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sure. up to you. I'm fine talking deep stuff in person, or over text.
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the problem i'm talking about is.................................. part of that. i think. probably.
[ god have mercy on esikko if he was wrong about this because if this blows up on her for nothing she sure won't ]
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yeah, of course I noticed.
you okay?
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like, who even coughs up flowers? isn't that weird?
[ Mayou waffles an annoyingly long time on whether or not to keep jokingly downplaying everything before just biting the bullet and taking a photo: leaves, a couple small buds, and a smattering of red petals, cradled in her palm.
"You're coughing your feelings up as they get stuck in your throat." She hates how accurate that is when she just can't find the right words to say what she needs to say. ]
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weird. sure.
is it really bad?
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[ Like hell is she gonna say it's his fault, though. This is all on her. ]
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[What could he have done even if she had?]
so, what do we do to get rid of it?
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and i'm not really used to asking for help, so. this is difficult enough for me as-is.
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What do we do to get rid of it? Tch. Still playing a hero, even when she's busy turning into a complete and utter mess over nothing.
How should she say it?
Why won't the words come?
Long, snowy white lashes drift lower when her eyes shut for a minute, then two. Inhale. Exhale. She can feel the petals swelling in her chest... what were they called? Gardenias?
After that moment of stillness, she opens her eyes again and starts to type. ]
🔒 locked to hawks (look at her respecting his privacy like a dork)
if i said i had feelings for you
would that bother you?
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How does he respond to this?
How does he even feel about this?
Sure, he's had confessions before, plenty of times, but it was always just a matter of offering a charming easy letdown. This time...how does he even feel about Adeline? He's been so busy putting off that question for another time that he hasn't spent any time thinking about it. Sure, he's had a couple of 'oh fuck' moments about her, but surely it can't be...]
2/3 - 🔒 locked to mayou and hawks
hypothetically speaking?
I mean, bother isn't the right word, for sure
[He sends it, and winces, because that came across totally wrong, but he has no idea how to make it better.]
3/3 - 🔒 locked to mayou and hawks
Heart and breathing sped up. Inability to immediately give a gentle letdown with a smile. The sensation of emotionally being stuck in quicksand.]
I don't mean that in a bad way
[And this is when it hits him, where he knows the coughing flowers thing from. Hanahaki. Isn't that just for shojo anime though?]
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She's not really sure what this dull, mildly painful sensation is. Not disappointment per se — because she prepared herself for this, the gentle letdown rigmarole — but it sure isn't pleasant. An ache, maybe. Like a bruise.
Still... her lips quirk a little, finding the humor of it all. She can imagine the look on his face. ]
you can be blunt, you know. i can take it.
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it's not like that
I've turned down a lot of girls before, I'm pretty good at it.
so if that was the answer, I'd just say it
it's not that easy, in this case
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it's not time sensitive anyway so no rush lol
[ She needs to take a long nap. Or a walk. Or just... something to distract herself and give him space to process. ]
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[Is she as conflicted as he is? It's hard to tell from text, but he's not particularly eager for her to see him in this state either, worried and uncertain and not entirely confident.]
what do you mean by that?
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normally it's easier to just
idk
break things off way, way before it gets this far?
[ Oof. Asshole behavior in hindsight. That unwelcome sucker punch of self-awareness is gonna smart for a while. ]
but now that i'm here i don't know what i'm doing.
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oh, yeah. that's usually how I deal with it too. back home it was either fans wanting to marry me or one night stands starting to catch feelings. easier to just cut it off.
yeah, I've got no idea what I'm doing either
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pun mostly not intended
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