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  @hawks
23 / male / bisexual / 7♣  

   

     

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My Self-Summary

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    My Future Plans

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    My Talents

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    Favorite Books, Movies, Music, and Food

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      My Ideal Partner

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Height 172cm (5'7½")   Body Type lean muscular   Smokes no   Drinks in moderation   Drugs in moderation   Sign capricorn (dec 28)     Education classified     Occupation pro hero     Income classified     Children none     Pets none     Hobbies fried chicken & beer, flirting

             

   

 

 

 

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    01. WINE OR BEER

BEER

    .02 CLOWNS OR MIMES

CLOWNS

    .03 BATH

SHOWER/BATH

    .04 PIRATES

PIRATES/NINJAS

    .05 TITS OR ASS

BOTH

    .06 COFFEE OR TEA

COFFEE

    .07 SPICY OR SWEET

SPICY

    .08 SUMMER OR WINTER

SUMMER

      .09 LEATHER OR LACE

LEATHER

    10. ROUGH SEX OR GENTLE SEX

BOTH

         

   

Personality Type
ENTJ-A

   

   

 

ENERGY

70%

extroverted

 

MIND

54%

intuitive

 

NATURE

68%

thinking

 

TACTICS

54%

judging

 

IDENTITY

75%

assertive

 

 

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Comments

[birdleaf]

[Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...]

hey.









good hey or bad hey
cuz hey could mean 'I have more delicious macarons for you' or, I dunno, 'help, I am a damsel in distress and need rescuing from a pro hero'

[calmomile]

[ DRAGGING HER HANDS DOWN HER FACE god damn it Hawks, now's not the time———! ]

uhhhh
'mildly inconvenient 50/50 chance of being a problem' hey?

distress is definitely involved but it's complicated

[birdleaf]

oh. and here I was about to type 'wait those were both examples of good hey' but this sounds serious.

huh. no one ever said 'it's complicated' about something good.

is it an in-person thing or an over-text thing?

[calmomile]

[ A pause.
A LONG pause. ]

i guess i could tell you the details over text and you can decide if it's worth an in-person visit?
probably simpler that way.

[birdleaf]

[Huh. She let him get away with that? This...actually probably is serious. He kind of feels something sink in his gut, but dismisses it. It can't be that serious. She'd only said inconvenient...]

sure. up to you. I'm fine talking deep stuff in person, or over text.

[calmomile]

sooooo i was coughing pretty bad for a while — that's why i've been ducking out a lot lately. dunno if you noticed.
the problem i'm talking about is.................................. part of that. i think. probably.

[ god have mercy on esikko if he was wrong about this because if this blows up on her for nothing she sure won't ]

[birdleaf]

[That heavy feeling just gets heavier. Is she sick or something? Is it serious?]

yeah, of course I noticed.

you okay?

[calmomile]

ha ha. not really.
like, who even coughs up flowers? isn't that weird?

[ Mayou waffles an annoyingly long time on whether or not to keep jokingly downplaying everything before just biting the bullet and taking a photo: leaves, a couple small buds, and a smattering of red petals, cradled in her palm.

"You're coughing your feelings up as they get stuck in your throat." She hates how accurate that is when she just can't find the right words to say what she needs to say. ]

[birdleaf]

[Coughs up flowers? Wait...coughing up flowers? That sounds...familiar. But he can't quite place where he might've heard of something like that.]

weird. sure.

is it really bad?

[calmomile]

pretty bad. getting worse lately.

[ Like hell is she gonna say it's his fault, though. This is all on her. ]

[birdleaf]

why didn't you tell me it was that bad?

[What could he have done even if she had?]

so, what do we do to get rid of it?

[calmomile]

it was manageable before.

and i'm not really used to asking for help, so. this is difficult enough for me as-is.

[calmomile]

[ For a time Mayou just sits on the floor of her room and thinks; staring blankly at the blinking cursor on her device's text box, back propped against the corner of her bed with her legs drawn up to her chest, an arm curled around her knees like squeezing herself into a tiny ball is gonna do anything to make this clusterfuck better.

What do we do to get rid of it? Tch. Still playing a hero, even when she's busy turning into a complete and utter mess over nothing.

How should she say it?

Why won't the words come?




Long, snowy white lashes drift lower when her eyes shut for a minute, then two. Inhale. Exhale. She can feel the petals swelling in her chest... what were they called? Gardenias?
After that moment of stillness, she opens her eyes again and starts to type. ]

🔒 locked to hawks (look at her respecting his privacy like a dork)

[calmomile]

hey, keigo
if i said i had feelings for you








would that bother you?

1/3

[birdleaf]

[It takes him a while to reply, sorry Adeline. It even makes him feel a little guilty, how long it takes him to reply. But he reads the message, reads it again, paces back and forth in his suite, reads it again, tries to get his thoughts together, but they seem scattered to the winds.

How does he respond to this?

How does he even feel about this?

Sure, he's had confessions before, plenty of times, but it was always just a matter of offering a charming easy letdown. This time...how does he even feel about Adeline? He's been so busy putting off that question for another time that he hasn't spent any time thinking about it. Sure, he's had a couple of 'oh fuck' moments about her, but surely it can't be...]

2/3 - 🔒 locked to mayou and hawks

[birdleaf]

[Oh fuck, he needs time to think about this, but she's asking right now!]

hypothetically speaking?

I mean, bother isn't the right word, for sure

[He sends it, and winces, because that came across totally wrong, but he has no idea how to make it better.]

3/3 - 🔒 locked to mayou and hawks

[birdleaf]

[For a few seconds, he just stares at his device, feeling that twisty anxiety building up in his gut and chest, breath and heart speeding up a little. Part of him is detached, observes himself from a distance.

Heart and breathing sped up. Inability to immediately give a gentle letdown with a smile. The sensation of emotionally being stuck in quicksand.]

I don't mean that in a bad way

[And this is when it hits him, where he knows the coughing flowers thing from. Hanahaki. Isn't that just for shojo anime though?]

[calmomile]

[ Ah. There it is.
She's not really sure what this dull, mildly painful sensation is. Not disappointment per se — because she prepared herself for this, the gentle letdown rigmarole — but it sure isn't pleasant. An ache, maybe. Like a bruise.

Still... her lips quirk a little, finding the humor of it all. She can imagine the look on his face. ]

you can be blunt, you know. i can take it.

[birdleaf]

[When she tells him he can be blunt, he feels a momentary spike of irritation - not at her, but at himself. Dammit, he'd be blunt if he knew what to bluntly say, but this is complicated and feels almost dangerous.]

it's not like that
I've turned down a lot of girls before, I'm pretty good at it.
so if that was the answer, I'd just say it

it's not that easy, in this case

[calmomile]

yeah. i know the feeling

it's not time sensitive anyway so no rush lol

[ She needs to take a long nap. Or a walk. Or just... something to distract herself and give him space to process. ]

[birdleaf]

you know the feeling?

[Is she as conflicted as he is? It's hard to tell from text, but he's not particularly eager for her to see him in this state either, worried and uncertain and not entirely confident.]

what do you mean by that?

[calmomile]

man, this is so embarrassing...

normally it's easier to just
idk
break things off way, way before it gets this far?

[ Oof. Asshole behavior in hindsight. That unwelcome sucker punch of self-awareness is gonna smart for a while. ]

but now that i'm here i don't know what i'm doing.

[birdleaf]

[There's something that's such a relief about her admitting she's embarrassed. Exhaling a breath, he calms himself down and pushes himself back to that objective place, the practical place he'd been taught since he was a kid. Detached.]

oh, yeah. that's usually how I deal with it too. back home it was either fans wanting to marry me or one night stands starting to catch feelings. easier to just cut it off.

yeah, I've got no idea what I'm doing either

[calmomile]

birds of a feather, huh?

pun mostly not intended

[birdleaf]

pretty sure that joke was ill-eagle. :)